What will it take?

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If you’re one of those people who is able to find the time and motivation to do everything you want in life (and then some more), then this might not really apply to you.
If not, I have one question for you – what will it take?

What will it take for you to sit down and start doing things you’d “really like to do someday”?
What will it take for you to accept and understand that the clock is ticking?
What will it take for you to recognize, every instant of every day, that Time is never an ally? It is that shadow that is slowly creeping over you, constantly pushing you into a corner.

The signs are all around for you to see.
Those gym shoes that are ignored day after day, the musical instrument that you’ve always wanted to go back to, the book that’s not going to write itself, those paintbrushes that now seem to find solace in each other, not to mention your passion – which has probably given up by now, worn out by having to remind you about its existence every few days. That new bicycle which got used for all of 2 days, now sporting tyres as deflated as the intent and purpose that made you get it in the first place.  Little indicators of failed effort that soon blend into the bleak landscape of routine, becoming completely invisible to the eye that is now trained to see only excuses, not motivation.

Nothing can or will happen overnight. Consistent and repeated effort will of course yields results – we all know that. Solving the little problems is what will help you address the big problem. But what is that spark that will light the fire, the fodder that will keep it burning? It takes a lot of things ‘coming together’ to create ideal conditions for one to do something. Waiting for that day when everything will be just perfect for you to do that something you’ve been wanting to do is, well, beyond foolishness. What one can do however, is work towards making the end result happen, by putting in what I like to call ‘distributed effort’.

Result takes effort. But the effort need not (or even cannot), in most cases be one sudden Herculean burst of vigour. It happens over days, months and years. All of it adds up, trickling into your ‘effort bank’, which will someday pay rich dividends when the time comes to encash it. Directed effort automatically qualifies you to get lucky. Your quota of luck often tends to mirror the contents of your effort bank, so it might be a good idea to ensure you’re not just drawing from them, but also investing systematically and diligently. Measures of fulfillment will quickly move away from material possessions to things you’ve done, experiences.

How long can you keep putting away happiness?
There are very few instances when the windows of ‘want’ and ‘can’ align, creating an opportunity for those who’re prepared for it. Even if you aren’t, there’s nothing stopping you from taking the leap – for all you know, you’ll be better prepared the next time.

Is there really a ‘promised land’ of tomorrow that you can put everything off to? Tomorrow is that mystical illusion that keeps slipping farther away with each passing day.

But then, do you even have a tomorrow? Would you know?

Flying High / Flying Low

Soaring up high, the winds take you on their flight
Racing the clouds, banking into the light
They have places to be, and you have things to do,
But at that very moment, all that matters is you

Your thoughts crowd together – they won’t be ignored,
Their need to be heard, is stronger than before
A scream, a sigh, a whimper, a cry
What follows might well be a prayer on the fly

Bring me home, says a muted voice
A plea blown away as the wind gushes by
I’m not meant to be speeding in the sky
I’m good for my word, screams a dreary mind
Be it day or night, by what’s right I will stand

Fluttering thoughts resent idling time
I’ve made my promises, now don’t make me whine
In this life I live, I may not shine
But I have promises to keep – mine and thine.

 

Larger than Life

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There are movies, and then there are movies. The fiercely imaginary ones are easier to digest. You know that they’re so far removed from reality, that there’s no way you’ll identify with anything that’s being shown on screen. Yes, they may speak of the same human conflicts that have been explored in stories since time immemorial, but the incidents and the characters themselves are usually so unreal, that it becomes easy to detach oneself from what’s on screen. How often is the average man likely to go home in a helicopter than lands on the lawn of his dad’s castle? The viewer then becomes a wide-eyed spectator – empathizing with the actors at times, but never once feeling that the story could be real. It is all something that happens in a distant, far-removed world of money, choppers, business tycoons, high-flying fashion and exaggerated dialogue and emotions that could never have anything to do with the reality of the common man. Such movies are easy to watch. And forget.

Every once in a while though, comes along this other kind of movie – a ‘real’ one. These are the ones that can make you squirm with their bare representations of real life. The situations and characters you see are often the kind you’d meet in your life; the incidents narrated, things that could very well happen to you tomorrow. These bring about a sense of identification that makes for quite uncomfortable viewing. The realization that it could be you on screen, having to navigate through the very difficult situations portrayed, can bring about a sense of disquiet. These are the kinds I won’t label as ‘entertaining’. If you’re looking at shutting off your mind for 120+ mins, you’re better off staying away from these sort of stories.

There’s a reason everything on that screen is larger than life.

‘Keep it real’ is for life, not entertainment.

Thank you (for want of better words)

I started out wanting to write a little note for a teacher I know. My mind went places as I wrote, and I soon realized that what I wrote was something I wanted to tell my teacher from school. So I did just that, writing a bigger letter to her along with the little note.

 

Madam,
Hope you’re keeping well.

I penned something today.
A teacher I know retired after teaching at the same government school for over 36 years. I had gone for the “send-off” that was organised for her, and I sat there – a mute spectator to all that was going on around me.

A small hall with a raised platform at one end that served for a dais, a curtain that was once purple that served as a backdrop, two rickety fans that seemed to generate more noise than breeze despite their best efforts, little benches that kids crowded on, constantly chattering, and teachers supervising them – teachers who didn’t really seem like teachers. I sat there through speeches and felicitations, hearing all of it – but not really listening. There was a strange sense of honesty about the whole scene that was almost tangible. I felt very removed, yet very much present.

A small school in the heartland of Kerala, little kids who are persuaded to come to school everyday by parents and teachers alike, families that are continuing ‘schooling’ for their kids just for the sake of the afternoon meal that the school provides, teachers who need the students to turn up year after year – so that the school does not get shut down for lack of students. A true symbiotic relationship, if there ever was one.
Truly a far cry from our lives, from a Loyola or a St. Thomas.

What touched me was the overwhelming sense of ownership that all of them harboured – this was their school. We’ve probably had the same sense of being Loyolites in the past (and still do) – but that was a feeling that stemmed from, and was deeply rooted in – pride. It is easy to be proud when there is much you have to go on – big buildings, every facility you could ask for, successful alumni, brand value, 10 buses, prizes at the national level – we had it all. Compare this to a bunch of students seated in that hall, lustily cheering their classmates for having secured a special mention in a district level competition, and you suddenly start to feel that what you’re experiencing is beyond your comprehension. You know it’s wonderful, but you’re not quite able to put your finger on it. There is a wave that swells up inside, one you’re not able to control. The time I spent in the school was special, though I’m sure I still haven’t been able to fully understand it. I’m thankful I was able to attend the function. The ‘send-off’ in the morning was followed by the annual day celebrations at the school, festivities that went on till the end of the day, with students being served lunch cooked by the teachers. It was wonderful.

What I started out writing was meant to be a little note for her, but as I wrote, I saw that I was writing to you as much as I was to her. Many of us have been lucky to be guided by teachers who have left a lasting impression on our lives – teachers who’ve gone beyond teaching, teachers who have taught us to see what they see, and then look for something more. Teachers who turned plain ‘subjects’ into enriching experiences, and made us willing and eager students. If we’re dreamers and thinkers and do-ers today, it is because of what you’ve taught us to become. It would be quite unfair to distill years of such upbringing into two little words. It takes only a second to say a little ‘thank-you’ – but we’re your students for a lifetime.

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36 years is a long time. Over 13,000 days stretched into weeks, months and years. The very thought of having spent 36 years in an ‘occupation’ is quite overwhelming. 36 of the best years of ones lifetime spent chasing dreams and shadows – which is what someone with a ‘job’ would do.

But not a teacher.
A teacher sees a different dream every day. Dreams that fill eager eyes as they look up, dreams waiting to take wings. Teaching brings about a sense of order, not routine. Teaching and learning together create magic, that fills up a void. It is this magic that makes all the difference. Unless one is able to make a difference every ‘working moment’, a job is just that – a job.

36 years is indeed a long time if one is working a job. But if you’re teaching, 36 years isn’t as long. Because for those who want to learn, a lifetime won’t suffice.

The Perfect Plot

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Two months, and hardly anything to show for it. This was not how he’d envisioned things to be. He’d even tried travelling, holing up at the attic in his ancestral home for a bit, thinking that the isolation would compel him to write. No distractions should result in improved productivity, was what he told himself. But the hydra that is the Internet had found its way in, head after head spewing fire, leaving him in swirls of smoke and smoldering embers of his ideas. He knew that he could get it done when he wanted to – it was only a question of finding the right stimulus. So far, he’d always worked best under pressure. Maybe it was time to up the threat levels a bit. A sword over his head seemed to be the best way to get him going.

He’d been struggling with the plot for a while now. He had a rough idea, but wasn’t sure how to take it forward. After all, what good is a story if it fails to captivate? And unless he could write something that convinced him first, why would he even think of putting it out there for the world to criticize? Several ideas had been contemplated, but he knew he hadn’t arrived at what he wanted. The thoughts in his head kept swirling around boisterously, refusing to settle down.

Which was probably why he didn’t hear the stealthy step by the door. A soft tread, but one he should have heard nevertheless. After all, he was alone at home. They had picked the lock on the door to get in. He could not have heard that, being in the balcony. The small block of flats hardly saw any visitors at this time of the day, and they had no trouble getting past a snoring security guard. Not being the first time they were doing this sort of thing, they knew exactly what to do, and more importantly, what not to do. He wasn’t supposed to be home though. This, they didn’t expect. They would need some quick thinking, and fast.

The cursor on the screen blinked at him unflinchingly, offering no help. He wondered at its ability to stay so focused at its job, irrespective of the sort of writing that he was putting down. That was something he admired. The inability to produce quality writing invariably ticked him off. It wouldn’t take long before he’d abandon the keyboard cursing, if he went down that road. As he stared at the screen the words seemed to blur into a shapeless mass, coming together to mock him.

He sometimes thought he lacked material, but that was not it.

There were stories all around. Take the couple across the street for instance. A story a second, is what he thought of them. From the quick snatches of affection in the morning to the lengthy bickering in the evening – his window offered an uninterrupted view into their colorful life. It was like watching a movie – many genres bundled into one. Although he’d hope every day that there wouldn’t be a tragic climax. A relationship was something to be cherished. He’d know that better than anyone else. There were things that he would have done a little different, had he been given another chance. That was a phase of his life that had sped by fast. Way too fast. He’d not been given enough to resolve or reflect, and now, remember. Everything from those days was a blur of tears now. Tears of dejection, anger, and lost hope. An episode of his life he could not go back to, despite wanting to.

Then there was the little kid on the ground floor. A blessing of new life, an expression of joy and surprise every waking minute. The exhilaration of discovery – day after day. He had unsuccessfully tried, several times, to describe the glint in the boy’s eye when he saw something new. From a truck that rolled by in a cloud of dust to the little beetle that scuttled down a blade of grass – everything was viewed with eyes shining with excitement. The yells of excitement at the smallest of things reminded him of his days with his mother as a little kid. Those were the only memories he could still go back to now. It was almost as though he had filled up his internal storage with so much from his childhood, that there was no more space to for anything else from the rest of his life. Maybe he just didn’t want to let go. Maybe it was the only happiness that he had, to hold on to. Those were days of sunshine, laughter, pranks and punishments. He been a butterfly in a garden, constantly hopping from one discovery to another. It didn’t take long for that garden to be washed away in the flood of adolescence though.

There was also the mysterious little pick-up van that was perennially parked in the little lane outside. It had been there so long now, that it had become a part of the landscape. People no longer ‘saw’ the van. It was so evident, that it had disappeared. It seemed to stay there devoid of claimants, despite probably still being in driving condition. Unvisited, unwanted, like a little memory locked up inside, not willing to be revisited. On some nights though, he’d seen some activity around the van. He had never been able to make out faces. They were always shadows, moving about. He was sure the van was part of some clandestine racket that was underway, but wasn’t brave enough to find out more. After all, trouble usually had a way of finding him before he went looking for it. While the storyteller in him was curious to know more, the third world citizen in him knew better. What somebody meant to keep hidden was probably better off staying hidden. He had a similar pick-up parked in the deepest corners of his mind. It had been stationed there post a phase of his life that he knew better than to revisit. His thoughts sometimes flitted nearby, much like the shadows on many a dark night. He didn’t know what they’d find there anymore, now that he’d kept away from it for so long. He’d trained himself to look through this parked cargo of regret, unable to move it out of the way.

He was troubled by writing as much as he loved it. It was difficult for him to make it happen on-demand. Yes, there were occasions when the words would gush out, much like a gentle waterfall being overwhelmed by a flash flood. But those days were few and far in-between. On days when he was able to write effortlessly, he’d feel like a Spartan hero who’d just won the war for his kingdom. And much like the warrior, not every day was his. Making victory a habit would require going to war every day, ceaselessly, and that was too big ask right now. Maybe the desire to shy away came from not being born a warrior, but just wanting to be one. Maybe it was not natural inclination – or as they put it, it wasn’t ‘in his blood’. How was he to find out for sure?  There was a certain place he went to when he wrote. A place deep inside. A place where most things ceased to matter. A place where a symphony of serenity laid everything else to rest. It was the need to find this place, again and again, that made him go back to his quest for words. As magical as the place was, it was near impossible to get to, on most days. It seemed to be hidden in a forest of words, accessible only to those who knew the right combination of words to unlock the path. A path that seemed to change every day. Being able to stitch the right words together was a blessing that he was bestowed with, very rarely.

He put fingers to keyboard yet again. If brute force was what was called for, then that is what he would have to get down to. He had to make this happen. After all, they’d agreed to publish it if they liked it. This was going to be his big break. He laughed out unexpectedly at that turn of phrase. Will the ‘big break’ break me, he wondered? The self-doubts had always been there, but now they resurfaced with renewed vigor and vengeance. There was a monster deep within, stalking every stroke of his pen. It kept trying to beat him down. ‘This is too much effort, you’re not going to make it’ – day in, and day out. A voice that he kept trying to silence, but was getting increasingly louder of late. His writer’s cocoon of silence had been defiled, and the need to banish the voices had become more urgent than ever before.

Was that a noise by the window? He wasn’t really sure.

He forced himself to come back to his desk, fishing his mind out of the abyss of thoughts it was floundering in. It’s probably somebody at the tea shop below, he figured. There was always something going on there. He’d once written a short story loosely based on the vendor at the shack, and his urge to fleece customers at every single opportunity. He’d been a mute witness on many an occasion, and couldn’t wait for the day when someone would expose the shopkeeper. In fact, he’d gotten so tired of waiting, that he went ahead, imagined it all in his mind, and tried writing a story. It gave him a strange sense of satisfaction, seeing the story out there. The truth, laid bare for everyone to see, yet no one to see it. That is exactly how life was turning out to be, he thought. The truth was right there, in front of everybody – but nobody wanted to see it. The fact that people were ruining their lives, the planet, and their kids – this new world order seemed to have uprooted logic by its very foundation. It didn’t take too much thinking to see all that, but most people were too caught up in the vice like grip of routine to be able to do anything about it. Well, all that was a topic for another day, he thought to himself wearily. Right now, he had a story to finish, and a plot to piece together.

They saw that he was engrossed in his work. The fates seemed to be on their side, with him failing to notice them even after they made slight noises. Twice. They were desperate – both of them. The idea to break-in and loot had not been their first choice at making a quick buck, but there weren’t any others that seemed to be as quick. And they needed the money, of course. They had zeroed in on a small apartment complex, one that would not have too much security, or CCTV installations. One or two such flats would see them through the month, they’d figured. They’d finally picked an apartment that seemed to be empty – after all, only one room had a light switched on, and that too hadn’t been turned off in two days. A common ploy employed by residents who were not at home. The door to the flat was the least of their worries. A little screwdriver and a small piece of cable had done the job of a key. He must have moved to the balcony as they were breaking in, they would have noticed him otherwise. He must have suddenly felt the need to breathe, they thought – sniggering to themselves. That apart, this did present a problem though. They had already broken in, and there was no way to see this through without getting caught, unless they left quietly, quickly and emptyhanded. The theft now boiled down to their sense of desperation pitched against the urgency of their need, and not greed, as was wont in many such instances. Having embarked on a crime, they quickly decided that it didn’t make sense for them to return empty handed. They were bound to be discovered – but with a little luck, they’d overpower him between the two of them. They waited near the balcony where he sat, unsure of what to do next. A heavy vase sitting on the dining table was silently palmed.

He seemed to be making some progress. Maybe the tide was turning. That is how it always was. Weeks of misery and agony followed by a day or two of brilliance. The ratio was far too skewed, he always thought. But there was no work-around that he’d discovered yet, than get through the rough days in the hope that their streak would end soon. He was quite happy with the sentence he’d just written. He had his hero on the brink of an epiphany – a realization that would change everything. But he wasn’t quite sure what. His hero was no Buddha, to come up with universal truths in the blink of an eye. It had to be something common, yet uncommon. Something that was in his sights all along, but was seen only now. But what was it that could happen to him to make him see light all of a sudden? Here was a commonplace citizen, burdened by all that life could throw at him, trying to juggle tens of priorities all at the same time, not sure what mattered, and what did not. A hero not very unlike himself, he thought. This was the man he wanted to bring the truth to. This was the man he wanted to enlighten. But what, and how?

If things were beginning to look up, he’d arrive at the answer fairly soon. It would just come – he knew. When time and tide came together, things just happened. There were occasions when he’d just let his fingers do the typing, not knowing where the words were coming from. One such wave, and he’d be done with the manuscript today. That would be beyond good fortune, he knew. Had he put in enough effort to justify a stroke of good luck now? He wasn’t sure, though he wished for it. His hero probably needed a life altering moment. An instance that put everything into perspective, like pieces of a jigsaw puzzle suddenly falling into place. He tried to reflect back on his life. He’d observed a lot of things around himself – seen, learnt and pondered over them. However, the only time when he’d been caught unawares was when he had been hospitalized with a rare strain of fever. He’d gone in for a check-up when the fever had persisted for a week. The usual dose of paracetamol didn’t seem to help. The idea was to get a prescription, buy some antibiotics, and get back to his desk. The blood tests had a different story to tell though. The doctors figured it could be a strain of H1N1, but weren’t too sure. They tried different drugs, and to this day, he wasn’t sure which one of them had worked. Truth be told, neither are they. All he still remembered is how he found himself in a hospital bed at such short notice. There was no time to do anything. Even the pizza that he’d wanted to pop into the fridge, but postponed until after he was back from the hospital. That was an incident that had forced him to reorganize priorities. It was strange how what seemed important until then suddenly became irrelevant. There are life-truths that can bring about such transformations, he thought. There certainly are.

They decided that it would probably be best to knock him out. This was the first time they had run into a resident while breaking in. Although unsure initially, the unconscious act of picking up a heavy vase had set in motion a chain of thoughts. Had the situation been a little different, had their need not been so pressing, they would probably have tried to get away without being noticed. That was not an option now though. This solution that had presented itself in their actions seemed to be a good bet. They would be long gone by the time he’d come to his senses. The local cops, as they knew, were far too burdened to bother about something as commonplace as a burglary. They just had to make sure they got it right the first time, so they wouldn’t have to deal with a howling victim trying to raise alarm. One of them had had to fend away a dog once before – that had taken considerable effort. A human, after all, was much bigger. The blow would have to be sure, and considerably heavier. The vase was handed across to the bigger among them, and they exchanged a confirmatory glance before moving cautiously in the direction of the balcony.

He looked up from his screen as he paused between sentences. He was getting into the groove, he could feel it. He could sense that his solution was close. The words were starting to fall in line, almost reverentially. It was as though they’d discovered a new found sense of respect for him. As he smiled triumphantly to himself, he thought he saw a movement in his peripheral vision. The shadows were not going to bother him, not today – he thought to himself dismissively. Today would be his day. He did look up to capture a stray thought though, and that is when he saw what was happening.

He wasn’t sure how hard he got hit. He could feel a dampness start to envelope the sides of his head, his vision clouding. As he slid to the floor in a crumpled heap, his mind went back to the few moments when he’d realized that he was being attacked. There must have been hardly a second or two between when he saw what was happening, and the vase made contact with his head.

The lucidity of the moment caught him by surprise. Even as he watched the vase descend on him, his mind detached itself from the horrific possibilities, or the outcome. The ordinary ceased to exist. The writer in him saw it purely for what it was – the moment of reckoning.

There could be nothing more defining than the prospect of having reached the end of one’s road. The simple clarity the moment accorded was more powerful than anything he had felt. Could death be the answer? The climax to the perfect plot he was looking for? He smiled to himself as the blackness started to descend – he had his answer.

Now, if only he could write.

You give me … fever.

This is not a competition; I have to tell myself every day. I’m not in it for the rat race. I have nothing to prove to myself. But being me is turning out to be so much more difficult than I’d imagined. Yes, there are aspirations, interests and dreams – but new day brings with it hopes (of others, not mine), peer pressure and ‘domestic demands’. A life within a life, that’s what I have been reduced to. Who is this animal within me who wants to get out, but at the same time, is unsure about wanting to?

Most of us harbour a passion within. You may or may not have recognized it yet, but be assured that it is there. For some, it’s like the voice of a long lost friend that you haven’t heard in years, but still think fondly about. Yet others look upon it as that dying voice that whimpers at them from the depths of their being, with little hope of being rescued. A lucky few have to deal with a vicious demon in their head, screaming at them incessantly, making every waking moment unbearable are reminding them of the misery they are putting themselves through, not doing what they really want to. The demon demands attention, and will not be ignored. The question then is not how to vanquish this demon, but how to turn it into your ally. It wants to be heard, and you’ll probably like what it has to say. ‘Hear no evil’ is probably what you’ve always been told, but try making an exception for once. Everyone deserves to be heard. I once tried to tell my niece a story – the Ramayana. I started, like any good storyteller would, with ‘once upon a time…’ with little thought as to what lay ahead. I managed to introduce the good prince Rama fairly easily, and soon go to ‘… and there was another evil king called Ravana’. Pat came the question – ‘but why was he evil?’ This stopped me dead in my tracks. Ravana hadn’t kidnapped Sita yet. In fact, Rama was yet to get married to Sita. So what made Ravana evil then? I didn’t have an answer. This is a story I had heard and read hundreds of times, yet this was a course of thought I hadn’t pursued. Ravana was evil, and that was it. I never tried to reason why, or listened to his side of the story. Now, something tells me that maybe I should have heard his side of the story too – the voice of the fabled monarch of Lanka, Ravana. A voice listened to is a story heard, an experience assimilated. A weapon you’ll never know when you’ll need.

One hardly finds time to think today. You go through the motions of each day, considering yourself lucky is you manage to make some time for yourself. How do you then, find this little voice within yourself that is struggling to be heard? The loudest voices that I hear today are the voices reminding me to pay the electricity bill, and to book a gas cylinder – not to mention the constant chatter of a two year old bundle of energy. However, there is something that keeps this particular little voice alive though. It has its moments when it will make itself heard. It will creep up on you from behind, and you won’t even realize. It is difficult to say when or how it starts – A slight feeling of discomfort, like you’ve had too much biriyani for lunch. A queasiness that you initially tend to ignore, thinking it will go away soon. You try drinking a glass of water, or taking a digestive, but it persists. The growing discomfort soon makes you squirm in your chair, not being able to place a finger on what’s wrong. You soon realize that something is coming, but you don’t know how bad it is. For me, it has always been like an intense bout of fever. When that wave of passion arrives, I have to do something about it. The burning from within consumes in its entirety, leaving me with little room for else. It is a voice that will not be silenced unless I weave my thoughts onto paper, and do it well. This is a fever I will not take drugs for – one that leaves me shivering in delight when I’m happy with what it brings, or shaking in disappointment, when I’m unable to appease the demon within.

Ready.. Steady.. Buy!

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‘Thank you for choosing our store. We guarantee that you’ll get the best possible products at the best prices here. If you get it at a better price elsewhere, we’ll give it to you for free!’

Too good to be true, I thought. The unreal sales pitch was making me sceptical about my decision to try shopping here. I looked around, trying to figure out where to go. It looked as though they had spent all their money on marketing. It wasn’t easy to find my way around.

‘Brand new cameras at special discounted prices just for you!’ screamed another banner.

I was right about their ad spend. Brand new? Why would I expect anything I buy to be otherwise? I came here to buy a pen, I tried to explain. This was already starting to look difficult.

‘A pen? Now where would that be? You could try our Office supplies section, Stationery store, or the Luxury items range. You’re bound it find it some place here’

Exactly what I wanted to know – “it’s in here somewhere”. A great help this was turning out to be. It took me a while, but I managed to find the humble fountain pen. The ‘massive discounts’ that I’d seen advertised didn’t really apply to what I was looking for. But then that was mostly true with every store I’d been to. The ‘Upto’ written in 0.005 point font next to the ‘50% OFF!’ in letters the size of the Burj Khalifa was nothing new to me. I’d taken to turning a blind eye to anything written in Godzilla point font.

They must have seen me eyeing the pen. ‘A lot of people are very happy after having bought this product’ I was told. And a ‘they really love it’ was added as an afterthought.

Impressive, I figured. So many people can’t be wrong, can they? But as I looked around, I started to realize that they had the same thing to say about all the products they stocked. Sheesh! The Waterman I was looking at looked to be authentic. What seemed fake was the price tagged to it. Quality like that simply didn’t come so cheap, unless someone else was paying for it.

‘Sir, this is the latest in our product line – available at this special price exclusively at our store!’ was the declaration, as a coffee maker was suddenly shoved under my nose.

‘But can’t you see I’m trying to take a look at this pen?’, I exclaimed in dismay as the big box ballooned in my vision. Why would they not let me shop in peace? I tried to hide my irritation as I manoeuvred to get around this new piece of bait, back to what I was looking at.

‘Just because it’s you, we’ll throw in a special discount coupon, which will enable you to buy this coffee maker for almost nothing!’

Now, I like my coffee, but this was not how. I like it steaming hot in a cup, when it is aromatic and refreshing. This was plain annoying. I had to restrain myself to limit my response to a dignified ‘No, thanks.’

‘Oh, and the coupon is only valid today, in case you change your mind about the coffee maker, sir. So you’d better hurry!’

These guys wouldn’t recognize a ‘NO’ even if it walked up to them and screamed in their faces. Why won’t they leave me in peace?

‘We have another surprise for you – we thought you’d like this soft-n-springy bed, to go with the two pillow covers you considered buying three months ago’

‘No, I don’t want a bed’, I muttered under my breath. I came here for a pen – why on earth was everything from a coffee maker to a bed being stuffed down my gullet?! Would they let me buy what I wanted from their god forsaken store or not?

‘Since you like the pen, we suggest you buy this nice leather bound diary to go with it. It adds character’

Not a bad idea. It would be best to buy it and leave before they threw more at me, I figured. I conveyed my intention of purchase, specifying what colour pen I wanted.

‘Sorry sir, but the pen you took so long to decide on seems to be out of stock. May we suggest this cheap mass-produced Chinese alternative instead?’

I wanted to hit someone. Hard.

‘We’re really sorry about the pen. But since you’re here, how about buying a healthy-heart doggy bone for your pet dog? These are fresh and taste lovely – and are in stock too!’

I had a very specific area in mind where I would have loved to shove that bone into at that very instant. Dog? What dog? If I had one, I’d set him after these louts for sure.

I threw the phone on the sofa with a dismissive sigh.
This app was getting on my nerves.

PS: Inspired by real life events.